Purgatory: Punishment is Real.

I often displease God by doing some habitual sins. I admit that I am no saint at all and I’m proving myself that I’m not a hypocrite because I know I have a lot of shortcomings.  I ask your intercession for this because I believe with the chain of prayers of every faithful. I could not promise to stop doing habitual sins immediately because it may lead me another sin again if I say I will not do it again wherein the reality I’m still doing it. I don’t want to be a hypocrite. I am admitting the real me, a sinner who tries his best to be holy in everything I do. That’s why I could promise to do my best not to do or to lessen these habitual sins especially now I had read an article about purgatory which moves me a lot. My theory about the afterlife is proven. Beside of everything of these, I could admit that life after death is existing and still another life. And they are three places; Paradise, Purgatory, and Hell. I am referring to a website of America Needs Fatima.

Last January 2015 after the Pope visited my country, Philippines, to see Tacloban where there were a lot of victims who died because of typhoon Yolanda: it was a tragic event in my country. But it was not finished there. Another tragic event happened which kill 44 Special Action Force (SAF) to hunt down one of a famous terrorist who cited at the southern Philippines. I still remembered the night before I go to sleep. I have prayed the Holy Rosary for the soul of SAF 44 and to my surprise, it seemed that my prayer was heard when I had dreamed about them. I saw Jesus and Mary with clothed in light welcoming the souls to enter the gate of heaven. I recognized Jesus and Mary because their image was similar to the Twin Sacred Heart. What I could see was a light, brighter than the sun but you could watch the light without having touched it. I was about to join the souls who were entering the light but my father wake me up because they heard me shouting and praying the Rosary while sleeping.

After 2 years of this dream, I had another dream where I could say it was a worse dream I ever experience. It could be compared to nightmare during that time. I could not tell what was this place, hell or purgatory. It seemed they were all the same appearance, burning fire like boiling water that produced smoke. What I am sure was the thing in form of human or I could say it was souls were suffering from the immense fire. I don’t know where is it until I read the blog of America Needs Fatima.

I am sure today that these dreams are connected to each other. It’s encouraging me to pray more and to do penance to save more souls. It made me affirm that prayers with concrete heart or with the sincere appeal are so powerful to save one single soul. Join me to pray for the poor souls.

Christ in his ransom had procured endless mercy. One need only wish to be saved, need only surrender his soul to God in the last gasp of contrition, and he will be saved. He may have to suffer at length in Purgatory, but, once there, this place is reserved in Heaven and he will in time arrive there. Purgatory is like our modern colleges: no one can flunk out of them. It follows, then, that the only way to get into hell is to insist upon it. One must deliberately exclude himself from grace by hardening his heart against it. Hell is what the damned have actively and insistently wished for.



Easter Sunday, a day of Prayers

This Easter Sunday became a different one from the past celebrations because it was said that Jesus went to heaven and saved poor souls but last night I got a vision and there were many poor souls went to the fire of hell. This vision seemed a continuation of the 2015th dream I had about 44 SAF. It was a contrary to the first vision I had which makes me very sad. From the first vision, the gate of heaven was opened wide for the poor soul whom battle for hope but for the next one I saw a fire of hell that the soul was burned without having consumed by the fire of hell. In my vision, a lot of poor souls has torn away into the fire of hell. They were shouting for help but for me, it was too late nobody can help them even Jesus because they were condemned already. I was sad about it.

I told you these to ask your help to pray for the poor soul who has a chance to be saved from the fire of hell. I couldn’t do it alone. Yes, I always say that I offered my daily lives for the sake of poor soul but I can’t do it alone. I need a help from other faithful. We may save a lot of them from the fire of hell. We perhaps could make a difference from this day of Easter Sunday. We could save a lot of poor souls.

This vision I had seen last night, I would not encourage you to believe but I ask you to join me praying for the poor soul. When I saw this vision I was not able to return to sleep because it kept me bothering. Please join me to pray for the poor soul.

I believe that if we have saved the poor soul from the fire of hell through our prayers, someday when it is our turn we could be saved by those whom we had prayed for. Because I believe by their prayers whom could see God face to face could make a little whisper to God to save us when our turn comes.

Let’s pray for each other. A prayer of the church of Christ is powerful if every each of us makes a sincere appeal to God.

Spiritual Dryness on Lenten Season

I don’t remember when the last time I posted a reflection here on my blog. My recent days was very tough that I let things happen as they should have happened. Well, should it be like this that the right thing we do, let everything happen as should it be under God’s providence? Letting God work in our lives and trusting to his divine will.

My birthday has come last March and I don’t even post any reflection here or something you should know about me, like how I celebrated my birthday and about things I have done from the past few days. I had never posted anything because of what I called spiritual dryness.

Lenten season has come but I don’t have anything to say, just to remind people to reflect on this season. This time is a time of turning to God for every Christian. Remembering the sacrifice that Jesus embrace on the cross; by his sacrifice, we have redemption and salvation. And it is all given already but in spite knowing all of these, I am experiencing what we called spiritual dryness. Even I pray all the time as I always said, every gesture or movement I make is a form of prayer. Even though, I still experiencing spiritual dryness. Perhaps, I’m not sincere deep inside my heart or I am lacking faith, trust, and love in all things I do.  What more for those who do not pray and forget already God in their lives. Could they remember God and give thanks for the blessing of life? I am sad for this. And it is a challenge for me to encourage people to pray even doing just a sign of a cross. What I can do for them is to pray that they may encounter God again.

God is always calling me to a religious life, I mean being a friar or a priest and I always rejecting his call because I just can’t. I hope God understands me. I know that I can be a holy man even I didn’t join a religious life or being a friar for a religious community. Perhaps it is enough to pray and to offer my daily deeds for the sake of the salvation of poor soul and to avoid war all over the world especially in the Asian country. There is a potential war in the Asian country that will trigger a world war III because of dispute island which is said very rich on natural resources. I hope to avoid it. What I can do for now is to pray and pray until the prayer is heard. It could be difficult for me because I am experiencing spiritual dryness. It seems my prayer was not heard by God. I know the devil sometimes confuse the mind of the people of God even the enlightens one just to win over God. And the best thing to fight the temptation of the devil is sacrifice and prayers.

Lenten Season

ash-wednesdayThe day passed but I have not written any article about Ash Wednesday. For so many article that circling on the internet about Ash Wednesday, I would choose not to discuss what it’s all about but rather explain it in my own way. You can search on the internet what is all about Ash Wednesday. In a brief idea, Ash Wednesday is one of the Traditional rites of the church to prepare oneself for the so-called feast of the resurrection of Christ after he conquers the world by dying on the cross. I rather focus on the true spirit of the Lenten season, initiating from Ash Wednesday until the feast of Pascal Sunday.

As the church calls us to repent and come back to God that we may save, Jesus cannot save us if we don’t want to. For us to be saved we must want it. It could be difficult for Christ to save one soul if the soul refuses to be saved. Instead of coming back to the hand of loving God, if a man refuses to admit that God is everything, a soul can’t be saved. That’s why Jesus continuously call us to repent of our sins.

images-8Jesus answered them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.” Luke 5:31-32

Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord.  Acts 3:19

From this bible verse, we could understand that every one of us is called in one purpose which is to repent and be converted. And from this, we can say that every human being has a vocation to be a holy man.

And Jesus said unto them, Come ye after me, and I will make you become fishers of men. Mark 1:17-20

download-6In the matter of fact, Jesus addressed this to his disciples to become fishers of men, meaning be a disciple of Jesus and go preach to the nation but it doesn’t mean we should be a priest or bishops or something like having offices in the church. It is enough to be who we are. This call of Jesus to his disciple is valid to all to be a disciple of Christ. But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; for it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy.” 1 Peter 1:15-16 We could be holy as Jesus Christ call us to be holy. Because it is said that “Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect”. As we are created in the image of God, therefore, we should be perfect as God is perfect.

Confessing my Sin

16830797_1499053916801695_5454334348979705751_nAs I reflect my daily deeds, I come up with confessing my sins here. I have a lot of shortcomings in terms of being a human who believes in the grace and mercy of good God. I always take for granted that God is always with me even in difficult times or even every time I do something like craziness or stupid things. I always take for granted that He will forgive me in spite of my shortcomings. Perhaps I have offended God so much that I feel guilty now as I realized it. Even I never intended to offend Him, it seems I committed a grave sin when I always think that he will forgive me though it is true that God will forgive me because of who He is. Because He is God who forgives his people over again and again.

images-6That’s why it is right to give Him what is due to Him. I try my best to praise Him in every moment of my life. Every day, whatever I do is a form of praise and adoration to good God even my ups and down is offered to Him. In this way, I prove to God how much I love Him and how much I feel sorry whenever I commit a single sin. I believe that God has its own way to purify us from our sins so that we may come into the life He promise. And I am not surprised if I experience what we called Karma. Karma could be a way of God to purify us from our sins. I could say that through karma God expresses His divine love for us to be saved from the fire of hell. images-7Perhaps the event that we encounter in the past is unimaginable because we are blind to hatred or the situation we consider as difficult to comprehend that God is with us all the time. Sometimes it may be difficult to understand the divine will of God. Sometimes we could understand it only after we realized that God blesses us through the events we had had. Sometimes it is too difficult to understand the mysteries of good God. His divine will could only reveal to us if we have patient and humility in our hearts.

The story of a soul

semIt was the year 2010 when I left the seminary for failing to complete the requirements required. I studied AB Classical Philosophy but I never accomplished it. I was in the second year level when the rector of the seminary talked to me and said that I should leave the seminary. I felt very sorry for leaving the seminary.  But it was not my fault because I did my best and my best was not enough, sad to admit it. One thing very usual to me every time I leave the seminary for the home visit though for that moment were different, I prayed for whatever will happen to me outside the seminary. I surrendered my force to the will of God that’s why I never looked down in that moment though I was sad, very sad for leaving the seminary. Everything for me was God’s will. In that moment it was difficult to understand the plan of God for me but after several years I realized that it was part of God’s plan for me. If that moment never happened I was not able to travel to Rome and see Pope Benedict XVI. It could be just a dream. I was happy to see the pastor of the Catholic church. I could imagine how blessed I was from millions of people who dream to see the leader of the Catholic church.

download-5Somehow it was difficult to tell to my benefactors that I failed and I could not be a priest. But I resisted it. I told to myself that it was only a beginning for my dream. So I told to my benefactor in Italy that I would come back in the seminary. I just let two years pass and studied outside the seminary then returned. But sad to admit that my benefactor back out to support me and proposed something more interesting. He invited me to come in Italy and be a member of the congregation he was trying to form. If I would like the congregation I could stay to be a member. So I accept the proposal. It was not bad to try another religious congregation. I waited for one year to process my document meanwhile I worked in the factory with the help of our neighbor who works as human resources in the factory. After the necessary documentation was accomplished I left my family and country with the hope I could be a priest someday. But one thing that caught my attention was everything turns in to the nightmare. I had a bad communication with my superior. We don’t understand each other not because I don’t speak Italian but we don’t really understand each other, literally. I do nothing inside the convent except serving to the Holy Eucharist. I asked if I can work to support my family in the Philippines but he disagreed with me. And it resulted leaving the congregation. I traveled to Rome to search for a job. I don’t have enough money to stay in Rome. One week later  I never found any job in Rome until my friends asked me to come to Pescina, Aquila. My friends, whom members of the religious community called, Sister of the Holy Spirit, helped me to find a job until they recommended me to come to Bari and worked as a care giver. I accepted it as it was my starting point. Seven months I worked as a caregiver until I found another job in Bari. I worked in one factory of fish. It was called Porto Santo Spirito Srl. As I worked in the factory I discovered one thing in my life, I was tortured by fear and anxiety that cause me depress. One year later I left the company and everything started there. I had traumatic depression. I had prayed to God and asked why this such thing happened to me. If it was a way of God to make me back to him well he won to convince me. I should be patient and courageous in whatever I do. So I came back to the congregation but it won’t work because everything in me has changed. And then I decided to return to my country. But everything never stops there. I decided to consult a doctor. After some medication, I was totally healed but I was not easy for me. I had lost a lot of things in my life, my work and most of all my pride as who I am. I lost my dignity, courage, and hope in God, the confidence that I had with God. mammola_-_san_nicodemo_a-bOne thing I did that all return to me was my continuous prayer. Even I lost my confidence I continued to pray and to attend the Holy Eucharist. And little by little I understood that everything was works of His divine mercy. I could die at that moment. I was totally depressed. It was very dangerous. I could commit suicide in that moment before I returned to my country. But thanked I stood still and hold to the mercy of God for me.  I understood that the works of the Holy Spirit was unpredictable and it was with me. He directed me to understand that I was loved. And there’s nothing to worry about. Just let the Holy Spirit works in his totality and everything will be alright. I have learned to trust to God profoundly. That’s why I never afraid anymore. And it leads me to try to travel again. I came back to Italy to find a job that will suit my necessary needs. But everything never stops there. I had a traumatic depression that ends me to caught by policemen here in Italy. But I never give up. I try to continue my daily affairs inside the REMS (Residenze Esecuzione Misure di Sicurezza). I always prayed for everything that’s happening to me. I knew it was not easy to pray while you are tortured by uncertain circumstances like this one. After all, it was all about me and God, my independence with him and my relationship with him as his beloved faithful. It was a way for me to change but not to be separate with God’s love. I knew that it was a way of God to purify me from my sins. And I was happy that I understood this thing and I continued to hope and to trust to his divine love. I could say, sometimes everything that happens to us is a way of God to purify us from our intentions in life. That’s why He let bad things or evil happen to us. I told you there’s something good in evil things.

God committed a righteous sin.

And it repented the LORD that he had made man on the earth, and it grieved him at his heart. -Genesis 6:6

the_creation_of_adamGod committed a righteous sin by creating humans and thanks to this sin, we were experiencing His divine love. Out of His love, God committed a righteous mistake by creating the human. I hope you would not misinterpret it.

I hope that people like me appreciate the gravity of God’s sin. God could not create us, human beings, because first He doesn’t need us but He love us and creating humans makes him happy. It is the fullness of God’s creation. He collaborates His love to the human. Creating human beings, it is the manifestation of His love. In order to demonstrate His love, He creates humans even He knows that we are weak to obey His order. But before we commit a single sin, God knows it already because He knows our own weakness from the time we are born. And He knows that human is subject to fall again and again because of what we called free will.

God impost us free will simply because he is GOD. He didn’t mean us to follow Him by force. What kind of God he is if He force man to obey him? The happiness God could acquire from man is not perfect if he forces man to love him wholeheartedly. It does not love that He could acquire from us that’s why He gives man a free will. What God wants from us is a pure love and if the man doesn’t love him what heartache it is for him.

200_sFrom creating human there came a revolution in heaven; do you think that not only human did revolution on how their President run its government. No. In fact, the first revolution was held in heaven. Because first of all, God created angels to praise and love Him but He was not contented with it because angels were deprived of free will after the battle in heaven that’s why he created human. Angels contradicted God by creating the human. There was battle of great angels between Lucifer and Archangels. And until now some angel or angels the same with Lucifer was always trying to oppose God. For that reason, the world is contaminated by evil. In fact, through the temptation of the rebellious angel, our first parent has changed the whole story of human existence by disobeying God. And the story of sinners became known to all over the world.

And it is for the human to seek the will of God in the middle of evil that existing in the world of full of uncertain circumstance. And for us human, it is right to demonstrate to the good God that He committed a righteous sin. Because for God, we are worth dying for. Jesus Christ died for us to be saved and for who believe in him will be saved.

Extraordinary gift from God

photo-1043One thing I wanted to share with you that you may be inspired by me as I was born with the defect but in spite of all, I looked life as normal as people do. My left hand was born deform. I almost believed that I was a disabled man. Having deform hand, sometimes I felt ineffective. Sometimes I envied people around me because they could do whatever they wanted to do. Some instances I felt discriminated against people around me. The first time I was discriminated was when I was 19 years old. I tried to apply in one factory and I never hired because of they afraid in my hand to be severely injured by the machinery of the factory. From the time I experienced it, I considered my life as no future in working industry. Unlike some country, people with the disability received the pension but in the Philippines as one of the poor country exist in the world, you could have nothing except for very poor family, they received a little supplementary credit. I insisted and I told to myself I would not be a burden for the society. I tried to finish my studies because I believed having a diploma I could be hired in one good company but I was wrong. Having diploma doesn’t change anything in my life. I was desperate.

13When things became unpredictable, I started to reflect and to search the purpose of my life which I came up entering the seminary. After three years in the seminary, I was ousted because I didn’t complete the necessary requirements. I failed my English Class, this was the reason I was busted. Such a failure for me. So when I reached 24 years old after I left seminary, I talked to a family friend who works as HR. I applied to their company and I was hired. I had a job for one year. I never hired in the company to work without connection or referral from HR department that’s why I envied people who can work without being discriminated. They thought that I was invalid to work but for me, I was the same with them. And this was one of the reasons why I returned here in Italy after I failed to pursue my dream to be a priest. I could work without questioning my left hand. I wanted to work because I believed that in working we could find the true meaning of life. Somehow I thought that God let happened this thing to me to be one of the inspirational people for all. So I never thought like disable man. I considered all happenings in my life as obstacles that I should conquer or overdue and I also considered it as an extraordinary gift from his divine love. I accept this thing as an extra-ordinary gift from God.

I told you my story not because I wanted you to feel guilty but I told you everything because I wanted you to believe that in spite of everything you had, you are not alone and you are blessed by God with his love. You may experience bad things or unimaginable situation and when you do, think that for so many people in the world you are not only one who bothers by past or present situation. So don’t ever lose hope. We are here in this world to endure everything as Jesus Christ did on the cross.

A Prayer on my Dream

prayer-1Have you ever slept and dreamed of heaven or have you ever bothered by your nightmare continuously? In the bible, some of the servants of God were instructed what should they do through their dreams. And one of them was St. Joseph, the husband of Mary, mother of Jesus. Well, if you asked me, I tell you my story. It was a secret that I never told my parents though they always woke me up dreaming the same story.

It was January 2015 when something happened to the group of policemen who tried to capture one of famous terrorist in Mindanao, Philippines. 44 Special Action Force (SAF) or well-known as ‘Tagaligtas’ died with the encounter of different groups of rebels in Mindanao. It was terrible. It happened after the Pope Francis visited my country in favor of the victims of the strongest typhoon Yolanda that washed away the Tacloban City and other southern Visaya region. I asked myself why this such thing happened in my country. After typhoon Yolanda then this SAF 44!

29dc81288932b711b798d9ae3e6a0886After watching TV, I entered my room and locked the door. What I did inside my room was to surrender to God and pray for the victims of both Yolanda and SAF 44. I prayed the rosary, then after praying the rosary, I slept immediately. I never imagined that I will have a dream about the victims of Yolanda and SAF 44. I dreamed about them. I dreamed that they entered in heaven. They were saved by Jesus Christ and Mary welcomed them. In my dream, I was shouting while I was praying the rosary. Yes, in my dream I was praying continuously. First time I experienced this was when I was inside the seminary. I always dreamed that I was praying the rosary. Then after I said the rosary in my dream I saw a light and then I was sure that I saw both Jesus and Mary, His mother. They were welcoming the victims of Yolanda and SAF 44. I realized that they were saved because I have prayed for their salvation. I have offered my very precious gift to God which is myself. I have offered my life as a form of prayer for the salvation of poor souls. It was similar to continuing praying for the poor souls like me. While I was shouting, I said that ‘the door of heaven is open. Three times I said it then my father woke me up. My father didn’t ask me about my dream because I knew that they heard me shouting and praying. I kept it and remembered it as a secret until today I wrote it for you.


Faith that is tested.

images-3The enthusiasm I had when I was inside the seminary was vanished but one thing more important to me now was the vocation to be a holy man. And it never vanished easily. It was imprinted in my heart. And it made me stay in the grace which I received from God. The world may ask me to respond to the sinful situation or to the occasion of sin which lead me sinning but my intention to be a holy man will never be disappeared. It was stronger than anything. Everything may agitated, my faith and hope to God but my vocation to be a holy man will never destroy so easily. It was rooted in my heart. A little faith was enough to be one of the saints. Faith without love could be destroyed easily by certain obstacles and struggles so in my faith I shared some love and I believed love was enough to change a man into a better person.

images-4As to be a holy man, my faith and hope in God could be tested through a sticky situation or could be tested by uncertain circumstance in this world. But with simple and little light through the help of examples of saints, a tested faith and hope could be nourished and could be more potential. A tested faith, it could be a way of purification of once life into holiness. The faith I had been not mine alone. That’s why it was not easily destroyed. It is received by the church from the pioneer. And it is developed by the pioneer so it was stronger than anything in this world. Faith was passed from generation to generation and it was believed from generation to generation. And what makes faith stronger, it was revealed by God to his people. That’s why I could say faith was not from my will. It was from God alone. God had faith in his people first and He had the first believer to his people. It was He who created the world, had the faith in his most beautiful creation, the human being. God knew how weak his people that they could be lead to sin but He never stopped believing in his people. What makes God happy, his people always creep back to his love. Never a man stopped to seek the truth. It was a relation of God to his people.  As God believed to his people, the faith of the people was nourish and steadfast.

Praying WomanI could tell you that my faith was troubled by so many things which stopping me to believe into the truth that was revealed by God to me. This is the temptation I always encounter but in the end, I could only hold to these truths that God so love the human being which lead him to believe in his creation. That somehow his lost friendship to the man because of sin, may restore and never forsaken anymore through his beloved Son, Jesus Christ. It is because Christ accepted his fate for the sake of humankind. Even Christ undergoes to the test of evil but He conquers it by love and obedience to his Father. By his example, I am imitating him who endured the evil that exists in this world. We are here to endure not to stay for so long or live as immortal. No one can stay in this world forever. St. Francis De Sales said, we people the world to people heaven.

Responsibility makes everything equal

00370dd4d539b2ce5e9675559daeeb35For Mother Teresa of Calcutta, it is equal, a Christian should be a good Christian, a Muslim should be a good Muslim, and a Hindu should be a good Hindu. For Don Bosco, you can be the saint in everything you do as long as you put your heart and from there it is your point to encounter Jesus. St. Therese of the Child Jesus and of the Holy Face said that doing ordinary things with extraordinary love. St. Francis De Sales said, we people the world to people heaven. For me, offering one’s  life to God as a form of prayer for the salvation of poor souls. It is my vocation. I believe that I could be a saint by living my simple way of life and offering my life as a form of prayer for the sake of poor souls. I don’t need to be a priest to be a saint.
itisgoodtoservegodindarknessIn my little way, everything is enough to understand that all of us can be an instrument of God’s love for each other
. In our simple way, we can be an instrument to share the love. And this love is Jesus. Something that illuminates me, what you have, you can share it but what you don’t have, you can’t share it. Therefore if you have Jesus in your heart it could be a point to share Jesus with others. The love of Jesus is overflowing and if you share it, Jesus is happy.

78a98f110ac8b93902345f1d1728bab7What does it mean to be a good Christians? What does it mean to be a good Muslims? What does it mean to be a good Hindu? For me, it is being responsible for everything we do and letting God works in our simple way of life and sharing the love. Through this, we can be called Children of God.222

Children of one Father

Why I am writing to you in this way, seems I am someone expert in this life. Well, I am not expert. I am nobody but wishing to be somebody who could influence you into a better person. I never intended to be responsible for your life or I never intend to be someone who let things be miserable for you. But something I want to tell you is I am professing my faith and I am witnessing to it. In this way, I could be someone who inspires people and influences them to be a better person. I always say it’s my story and it never ends here. It’s my way to be remembered. I don’t intend to die young but for some reason, I write these things for reference for my autobiography. Because we never know, if someday I’ll be proclaimed a saint of modern times. We don’t know. Every one of us never wants to be forgotten as time pass. That’s why I am writing to you for this intention. I know that someday people will study my life to know if I am living as true Christian. I profess to be a saint someday.

download-3Every saint had their own story and history how they met God in their lives. And for me, it is written here. When I met Jesus in my life he really inspired me to do his will and by doing what he pleases. I surrendered to his love and mercy. Seeking his will was not difficult because you don’t use your own will but by seeking what you have in your heart. Because I believe that in every heart of the human, God marked his love. This thing leads me to profess my faith in Jesus. But doing the will of God was not easy only if we have pride in our heart. Because pride destroyed everything and it is seen in our will and life. Pride made things complicated especially when we tried to witness the true faith that was entrusted to the church and to every member of the church. Only pride made difficult and complicated things in this world. We may be encountered some difficulties because we had pride in our heart but by the help of mercy of God we could found everyone as one and united in one purpose. And this was the fate of humanity become one and united in one faith. Even we are different from each other, having a different interpretation or having a different religion, there was one and common to us as children of one Father, God, the Creator. We were one and connected to each other. I believed in finding commonality with one another which makes us one, we become one though there’s a difference to each one of us. In time such these, we lived indifference but if we looked and reflected we were responsible for the unity of the church. Because we were created by one God whom always faithful to us. So don’t ignore one another though we are different to each other.

For a meanwhile let’s forget who we are and remember that we are responsible for one another. A little push to recognize that we have commonality and we realize that even unique people, we are not different from each other. We are all children of one Father, Creator of the universe.

Meeting Jesus in my Life

In my darkest time, I have never been alone. I know that. Because Jesus is always with me and I trust to his unfailing love to me. I know that he is happy that I am telling you these things to you. He is happy that I am witnessing to his divine love for humanity. Knowing these what happiness I have and confidence in him. Everything is enough to understand that He is with me in everything I do and whatever I decide in this life. It is Jesus’ happiness to find a single soul trusting in him and I understand it because I share his suffering and happiness. who-is-jesus-christ-740x405When a soul finds that there’s nothing to be worry about under the love of Jesus, it is Jesus happiness too. I share his happiness also. In this world, it is not only Jesus Christ’s suffering counts but his happiness knowing that soul is happy having him in his heart. I can say when a man, who is a sinner, meets Jesus Christ, he is marked forever with a memorial of his heart.

jesus_christ_scared_heart_drawing_art_photoI wanted to tell you my story when I met Jesus in my life. I was 19 years old then when I realized everything in my life goes wrong. There was no purpose. I lived for nothing. I realized that my life was empty. One day, in our parish priest homily, he invited us to attend the so-called crusade. It was a journey of volunteer people to meet Jesus in prayer or in other sense, it was about studying Jesus. I was there and I responded to the invitation knowing nothing about it. I asked myself, What will happen if I join them? And one thing made me convinced to attend the so-called crusade was my brother. My parent told my brother to attend the crusade. They invited him but not me. It some kind of jealousy that they invited my younger brother where I was not. For this reason, I volunteer to attend. I told them that I wanted to attend the crusade. The duration of the crusade was three nights and three days. We were locked inside the convent. What we did was to pray and find ourselves in prayer. Inside there I found myself in the darkness that I could tell you that there was no reason for me to live without purpose. So I have begun to ask myself what should I do in my life. Suddenly, my life changed there by asking my life’s purpose. We were arranged to make the confession but, before that, we were encouraged to know why we should go to confession. And I discovered my life was empty without Jesus in my life. Little by little, my life changed and I became religious being. During that time I realized that Jesus was always with me. He directed me to go back to him. The crusade was the occasion for me to meet Jesus. I learned to pray and I learned Jesus. It was also the reason why I entered the seminary. Today I am happy that I know him.

Many times in my life I tried to find the true meaning of life and I only found it with the life of being faithful to the one who designs it. This was true. To find life under his divine providence made human life meaningful and fruitful. And I never knew it unless it was revealed by God to me. The ultimate end of the human being was rested with his creator. A certain saint says, ‘My life is restless until it rested on You’.

Sharing in common Faith

god-faith-and-love-god-31725458-480-480In my ordinary life, as I walked the way to holiness, my faith was shaken by so many obstacles that I almost abandoned my faith in God. I knew that all saint had their own history of how they dealt with their own obstacles and struggles. What made my story the same to them was I believed in common faith. And what made our story differ was how we look at our daily situation and how we dealt with it. I told you that even I, I never been excepted from obstacles and struggles. Thanks to the prayers of my beloved family and thanks for their encouragement to pray that I hold the faith until now. I have received the faith from other and it was right to hand it to others also. I believed in the connection of one another. Everything was connected to each other. And if this connection has vanished, life become imbalanced. That’s why I was trying to share the faith I have learned from the church. In order to acknowledge one’s faith, it must be practiced. To profess the faith, one must believe and one must witness through daily works. In order to say that one was a faithful, one must profess it.

saintaugustine121380I am witnessing to the faith by living on it and trying to hand it over to my family and other people. The beauty of believing is mirrored in one’s way of life. I am telling you that having faith in God, life change in different ways. It could make our life wonderful in the middle of uncertain circumstance. Having something you believe in earthly life changes everything. The way you look life and deal with it makes sense. It is important that you believe in something. And what makes everything wonderful is you are not alone. Our love for Jesus and for our neighbor impels us to speak to others about our faith. Each believer has a link in the great chain of believers. I cannot believe without being carried by the faith of others, and by my faith, I help to support others in the faith. One cannot be a believer if he doesn’t understand what he believes but sometimes it is easy to believe first in order to understand the faith. In words of St. Augustine, “I believe, in order to understand; and I understand, the better to believe.”

What is faith? It is a human act, a response to the invitation of God to human as his Father and Creator. In order to mature on one’s faith, one must study so he learns to nourish his faith. I am declaring my faith on this blog and communicate it to others. Life is wonderful when you have something you believe.

Relationship of Father and Son

If you abide in me and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish and it will be given to you.

-Jesus Christ 

-John 15:7


My little way of life is being one of the simplest people who do the will of God. To know that I am doing the will of God is very simple. It is by staying in the grace of God. That’s mean I must frequent the sacrament of confession and simultaneously receive the Holy Communion. Staying in the grace is what confidence between God and me. I am confident that God is with me and my heart is with him for I seek his will in every moment of my life. As He said, seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all shall be added unto you. I consider everything that goes on, a gift of his divine love. One thing that exists between me and God is like the relationship of father and son. As the creator of the universe, God is the Father of every created thing that exist on earth whether these things are touched by the hand of a human being. Everything we concept with our senses is created by God. Because everything comes from his divine love and it manifest with overflowing grace.  So as we are created by the grace of God, we can call God as the Father of everything that exists in the universe.

In ordinary human life, what is the supreme relationship between creations and God, the Father? It is love. It is the Father’s love that has brought every creation into being, and by its fraternal love, it is supported with grace. Above all, the thing which the Father wants from us as creation is love. The Father possesses everything else but if it does not possess the love he seeks from us, his heart is left aching. Now, from the point of view of the Father, what does the Father wants from us? He wants our love and it is what I want to give to him. The only gift that we can give to the Father, the Creator is loving him although God is perfect even without his creation especially the human being. Between the Father and creation, all is love and if this should not exist, then all the relationship of between God, the Father and creation go wrong. The point is, God is our heavenly Father. He has created us because he loves us. By his love, we are supported by his grace every moment. The only thing which our heavenly Father wants from us is our love. Without it, his heart is left aching. On our side, we want the love of our heavenly Father. Without it, we are restless and dissatisfied. Why the world is so unhappy, it is because human tries to satisfy itself with something less than the love of God.

Whatever you ask for in prayer full of faith, you will receive.

-Jesus Christ

-Mt. 21:22