In my darkest time, I have never been alone. I know that. Because Jesus is always with me and I trust to his unfailing love to me. I know that he is happy that I am telling you these things to you. He is happy that I am witnessing to his divine love for humanity. Knowing these what happiness I have and confidence in him. Everything is enough to understand that He is with me in everything I do and whatever I decide in this life. It is Jesus’ happiness to find a single soul trusting in him and I understand it because I share his suffering and happiness. When a soul finds that there’s nothing to be worry about under the love of Jesus, it is Jesus happiness too. I share his happiness also. In this world, it is not only Jesus Christ’s suffering counts but his happiness knowing that soul is happy having him in his heart. I can say when a man, who is a sinner, meets Jesus Christ, he is marked forever with a memorial of his heart.
I wanted to tell you my story when I met Jesus in my life. I was 19 years old then when I realized everything in my life goes wrong. There was no purpose. I lived for nothing. I realized that my life was empty. One day, in our parish priest homily, he invited us to attend the so-called crusade. It was a journey of volunteer people to meet Jesus in prayer or in other sense, it was about studying Jesus. I was there and I responded to the invitation knowing nothing about it. I asked myself, What will happen if I join them? And one thing made me convinced to attend the so-called crusade was my brother. My parent told my brother to attend the crusade. They invited him but not me. It some kind of jealousy that they invited my younger brother where I was not. For this reason, I volunteer to attend. I told them that I wanted to attend the crusade. The duration of the crusade was three nights and three days. We were locked inside the convent. What we did was to pray and find ourselves in prayer. Inside there I found myself in the darkness that I could tell you that there was no reason for me to live without purpose. So I have begun to ask myself what should I do in my life. Suddenly, my life changed there by asking my life’s purpose. We were arranged to make the confession but, before that, we were encouraged to know why we should go to confession. And I discovered my life was empty without Jesus in my life. Little by little, my life changed and I became religious being. During that time I realized that Jesus was always with me. He directed me to go back to him. The crusade was the occasion for me to meet Jesus. I learned to pray and I learned Jesus. It was also the reason why I entered the seminary. Today I am happy that I know him.
Many times in my life I tried to find the true meaning of life and I only found it with the life of being faithful to the one who designs it. This was true. To find life under his divine providence made human life meaningful and fruitful. And I never knew it unless it was revealed by God to me. The ultimate end of the human being was rested with his creator. A certain saint says, ‘My life is restless until it rested on You’.